Motivation

Why is it so hard to find the motivation to do something or anything sometimes? The motivation to choose what to do. Why is it so simple to sit and do nothing. To plod along on the same path doing the same old same old. Not figuring out what actually brings joy to your life, but simply passing the time until something finds you. Afraid to venture forth into the unknown. Until you wonder into the unknown and are surrounded by the unknown. Blind of emotions, unable to understand what to do. How to navigate life without the ability to find a bearing of your life. To have your life flipped upside down and not know what is up and what is down. To figure out what is up and down relative to where you are but to doubt where you are and what was up and down before you got flipped. To have the basis of your past life twisted to be unable to return to what you knew. To know that the past wasnt good but not completely horrible. But unable to piece together the good pieces and pick out the bad pieces. So motivation to write this, alas not motivation but the emptying of the built up. Motivation is a fickle friend. It can depart you in a moment or it can stay with you forever. Energy plays in the equation too. With motivation but no energy, you do little or you do it poorly. If you have energy but not motivation, you can do stuff but cant decide what to do with that energy.